She details how she tried to commit suicide, propositioned women for threesomes and had vaginal rejuvenation, in her bombshell new book Brutally Honest.
And despite her explosive memoir revelations, Mel B looked utterly relaxed as she stepped out for a sun-soaked shopping trip in Los Angeles on Wednesday.
The Spice Girls singer, 43, flaunted her gym-honed figure in skintight nude co-ords as she indulged in some retail therapy with her BFF Gary Madatyan.
Low-key outing: Mel B rocked skintight nude co-ords as she went shopping in LA… after revealing she tried to commit suicide, propositioned women for threesomes and had vaginal rejuvenation
The America’s Got Talent judge paraded every inch of her svelte frame in the plunging bralette, which she teamed with high-waisted trousers.
Mel completed the relaxed yet sexy look with a matching long-line cardigan and nude patent stilettos.
Styling her dark tresses in glossy curls, the star framed her features with a bold slick of red lipstick and plenty of mascara.
Laid-back: Despite her explosive memoir revelations, Mel B looked utterly relaxed as she stepped out for a sun-soaked stroll with her hairdresser BFF Gary Madatyan
In Brutally Honest, she details how she hit rock bottom the night before the UK X Factor grand final red carpet in 2014, and details how she was drinking heavily and snorting lines of cocaine in between X Factor shoots to deal with depression.
In the eye-popping book – an early draft of which has been obtained by DailyMailTV – Mel also opens up about her love of sex and threesomes, her controversial relationship with Eddie Murphy, her sadness over her father’s death and her fractious relationship with the Spice Girls.
She also confesses to having a string of cosmetic surgeries and even a vaginal rejuvenation to get over her divorce.
But the main theme of the explosive memoir is her roller coaster ten-year marriage with Stephen Belafonte.
Telling all: Mel has lifted the lid on her drug addiction, suicide attempts, and bitter divorce from ex-husband Stephen Belafonte in her new memoir
Bitter split: The main theme of the explosive memoir is her roller coaster ten-year marriage with Stephen Belafonte, who she blames for her hitting ‘rock bottom’ and her desire to take her life
The America’s Got Talent judge accuses her ex of years of emotional and physical abuse, driving her to the brink.
‘I know what it’s like to be beaten down. I know what it’s like to be punched, humiliated, isolated and to feel there is no way out except suicide,’ she writes.
In her message at the front of the book Mel insists ‘lies and mistruths’ kept her trapped for long enough and now, ‘I want the truth to set me free.’
She adds: ‘I am ready to say what really happened to me…’ But in Brutally Honest, while she regularly alludes to violence, Mel includes no details of any of the several beatings she alleged she received from Belafonte in court papers during their bitter divorce last year.
In court documents filed in a bid to win a temporary domestic violence restraining order against Belafonte, Mel branded her ex a monster and told a horrific story of abuse.
She claimed he tried to choke her and threw her to the ground during one rage in November 2007, the night of her ‘Dancing with the Stars’ finale and alleged Belafonte ‘punched her and split her lip’ after becoming jealous while she filmed a segment with Usher for the X Factor back in 2012.
She claimed in August the same year, the day after performing at the closing ceremonies for the London Olympics, Belafonte punched her with a closed fist and pushed her down on the carpet.
Her skin was burned and her face ‘actually scabbed over the rug burns,’ she claimed. Yet despite this apparent ‘pattern’ of violence not a single one of these allegations is included in the book.
Mel, who has three daughters, says she wrote a suicide note for her eldest daughter Phoenix (far right) before downing 200 aspirin pills in 2014. She says she later sought medical help after realizing she ‘couldn’t do it to my girls’
The exclusion seems even more bizarre given she has included an anecdote about being beaten by her ex-husband Jimmy Gulzar.
DailyMailTV has checked with lawyers for Belafonte and the couple does not have a non-disclosure agreement – meaning there’s nothing to stop Mel from telling all.
Belafonte, 43, has always denied domestic abuse and says he’s never beaten her and to date no evidence has been presented to suggest otherwise.
Most shocking about Mel’s explosive memoir – being published on November 27 – is the star’s revelation about wanting to take her own life – an event she blames on her ex.
‘I can’t pretend I’m not living in some twisted, violent hell. My life is a mess and I want out,’ Mel writes.
‘I was at rock bottom…I was exhausted, worn down by seven years of constant emotional abuse, mind games, degradation, threats and sexual exploitation. I was drinking too much – wine, vodka, tequila – and had lost all self-respect. I was lost.’
It was December 11, 2014 and Mel describes how she was staring in to a huge mirror in the en-suite of her rented house in Kensington, in west London, tears rolling down her cheek as she held an open bottle of aspirin.
The 43-year-old recalls: ‘As each pill goes into my mouth, I ask myself, “Are you sure?” And I take another one. Ten, twenty, fifty. One hundred. “Are you sure?”‘ Mel recounts how it was her second time trying to commit suicide, the first being when she was aged 14 in her modest home in Kirkstall, Leeds in the UK having stolen some pills from the family cupboard.
She said decades on, her life having changed unrecognizably with fame and fortune, she was living a ‘big fat lie’.
The singer said that despite her glamorous gilded existence her life was a ‘sham’.
The 43-year-old admitted to taking cocaine a few weeks into filming X-Factor in 2014 but insisted she never took it while shooting the show
‘Trapped in the vice of my own celebrity image. All smiles on the outside, misery and self-loathing on the inside, always telling the world how happy I was, when really all I ever wanted was to scream for help.’
As she reached her lowest point she began to scrawl a heart-breaking suicide note to her eldest daughter Phoenix. Fortunately, Mel says the thought of her girls, Madison and Angel (Phoenix was away at boarding school), who were asleep next door, jolted her back to reality.
But she’d already swallowed a staggering 200 pills. In shocking claims, Mel says her then husband Belafonte was less than sympathetic and tried to stop her from going to hospital – a claim he vehemently denies.
As she tried to leave, she claims he rammed the door back, her head and shoulders were being slammed between the crack in the bathroom door.
‘I couldn’t let myself go under. I had to believe things could get better. I couldn’t do it to my girls, my family or all those people who actually believed in me,’ she recalls.
Troubled: Mel referred to the drug as something ‘strong’ to help her cope and said her routine involved snorting two lines of the drug in the morning, taking five or six lines a day to find the ‘magic formula’.
In the book Mel claims the bruises on her face and shoulder everyone saw on television at the X Factor final three days later were caused in those moments.
After calling her security guard Chris that night, Mel was eventually rushed to a private hospital early the next morning before being taken to A&E at Northwick Park NHS hospital in a ‘critical’ condition.
In the book Mel has been open about her inner demons and admits she turned to alcohol and drugs when things got bad.
She says she took cocaine a few weeks into filming X-Factor in 2014 and her addiction worsened from there. Her routine involved snorting two lines of the drug in the morning, taking five or six lines a day to find the ‘magic formula’.
‘The cocaine only made my depression worse and I was permanently anxious and on edge,’ she said. Mel insisted she never took the drug while shooting the X-Factor, but refers to cocaine as ‘something strong’ to help her cope.
Brown did not include details of the alleged physical abuse she suffered at the hands of Stephen Belafonte but includes an anecdote about being beaten by her ex-husband Jimmy Gulzar (left) the father of her eldest daughter Phoenix
‘I’m not proud of taking cocaine but I can’t say it didn’t help me to have a line of that white powder when I got up in the morning,’ she explained.
When she got home after a long day on set the craving came back. ‘The cocaine would come back out of my bag and up into my nose. One line, another line and yes, another and another,’ she said.
And in another apparent contradiction to what she had claimed in court papers Mel admits she is open to sexual experimentation, including threesomes.
The former Spice Girl claimed that during her marriage, she was coerced into trysts that Belafonte secretly recorded and later allegedly used as ammunition against her, threatening to release as sex tapes ‘if she tried to resist the threesomes’.
But in her book Mel admits it was her idea to try a threesome and drafted in a female escort in Washington DC friend to take part.
She also admits she got a ‘kick’ out of her hubby filming their sex sessions.
‘The threesome was my idea but of course my then husband was well up for it…I don’t think it’s shameful to experiment – as long as it is all consensual – and I believe women can enjoy and initiate sex just as much (if not a whole lot more) than men.
‘I made a call and a friend of mine came over. We had a lot of champagne and a lot of fun. I fell asleep happy because we’d fulfilled a fantasy.’
From there she says she ‘enjoyed’ threesomes and often initiated them herself, targeting LA party girls or lap-dancers, trawling nightclubs to pick out girls they found attractive. They also tried to drag celebrities in they ‘sex web’.
Some girls like socialite Lady Victoria Hervey – said ‘yes’, some girls – like popstar Rita Ora – said ‘no’.
Again this whole passage flies in the face of her claims in court papers that she was coerced into having threesomes.
Mel, who has had lesbian relationships in the past, admits that she finds women’s bodies much more beautiful than men’s bodies.
Mel also opened up about the death of her father, Martin Brown (pictured right in 2007) who she had been estranged from for years. Brown died on March 4, 2017, and the star writes ‘I miss him so much it hurts.’
And she says she’s tried her best to keep her own celebrity body in prime condition. Since her divorce she has had a series of cosmetic surgeries, she writes.
Mel claims she contacted Dr Chia Chi Kao, an experienced aesthetic and reconstructive surgeon in Santa Monica.
On the surgeon’s website it boasts Vogue magazine said Dr Kao ‘is single-handedly revolutionizing the future of facelifts.’
Mel wrote that in the space of a matter of months Dr Kao arranged for her to have a whole series of small surgeries on her ‘face, eyes, boobs and stomach’. She didn’t stop there.
Mel then contacted Beverly Hills cosmetic surgeon Dr David Matlock who specializes in laser vaginal rejuvenation.
‘I wanted to have surgery straight away,’ Mel explains. ‘He told me I didn’t need it and that for a woman with three children, I was in exceptionally good shape. But I knew I wanted this done.’
Mel’s book examines the highs and lows of her personal life and the death of her father, Martin Brown, on March 4, 2017 really hit home. She recalls driving up to Leeds to see him as his health deteriorated, his body consumed by cancer – but it didn’t go well.
Martin had not spoken to his daughter for five years after she filmed a documentary in Leeds and didn’t go to see him.
‘My dad started shouting at me. ‘Melanie. Mind your own business. Go back home. I don’t want you here.’
Brutally Honest, will be released on November 27, 2018
He kept ranting saying that I’d forgotten who I was and that he never wanted to see me again.’
She added: ‘I cried all the way back to London.’ Mel was devastated when Martin finally past away.
‘I miss him so much it hurts. Sometimes I wake up in the night and I am crying. Because he’s gone. Because so many years went by without us speaking. Because there are so many things I want to say to him. My dad. The first man I loved and the first man who broke my heart.’
Interestingly, in the book Mel talks warmly about her close friend Rusty Updegraff and how a fall out with her husband meant they had to part ways ten years ago. But she says he soon came back in to her life after she divorced her ex.
She gushed: ‘I’m glad to say, Rusty is now sitting beside me now in my all white apartment close to the Farmers Market in downtown LA.
‘We are laughing together and talking about old times. I never lost my friend. He waited for me to come back to him.’
Presumably this narrative, seen in an early draft of the book, might change significantly in the final version to be published next month.
In September Rusty, who helped care for Mel’s children, told DailyMailTV she was the ‘world’s worst mom’.
The restaurateur, 60, said his former friend drinks day and night, is addicted to sex and needs urgent help to get her on the straight and narrow.
Siding with Belafonte in his custody battle for daughter Madison, seven, he also said he feared for their children’s welfare while living with Mel and someone needed to intervene.
His bombshell deposition filed in LA Superior Court on August 31 led to a judge ruling Mel had a drink and drug addiction – and ordering her to undergo four months of regular medical tests.
Belafonte also has temporary custody of Madison until the matter is resolved. Rusty added that Mel blaming her booze and drug problem on PTSD from an abusive marriage is complete nonsense.
‘I met Mel years ago, in 2002, so saying that this is all caused by PTSD is crazy because she was this way before she met Stephen and I was there when she met Stephen,’ he said.
‘She was partying hard back then, but today it has just escalated.’
MEL B: I WAS EXCLUDED FROM THE SPICE GIRL REUNION
In Brutally Honest, Mel B harks back to the early days of the Spice Girls and ‘Girl Power’ – fondly remembering the close friendships and the laughs.
In a draft of the book, seen by DailyMailTV, she recalls a night when the band stayed in the same hotel as superstar Elton John and her and Geri Halliwell were drunkenly giggling outside his door before peeing in a pot plant outside his doorway.
‘We thought it was the most hilarious thing in the world,’ she wrote.
Mel, 43, known as Scary Spice in the band, also recounts a recent Spice Girls reunion she arranged at The Connaught, a five-star hotel in Mayfair, west London in February this year.
But she says details of the meeting were leaked to the press so at the last minute it was switched to Geri’s house in North London.
‘We’re all at Geri’s house,’ said Simon Fuller on the phone to Mel after she got off a plane from LA.
‘I was totally thrown,’ writes Mel. ‘I was completely thrown that no one had texted me to tell me about the change of plan.’
Mel says she was ‘raw’ and ’emotional’ and felt like she was left out of the loop.
‘I was so upset that for a moment, I actually thought about not going.’ She did go, however, and says the meeting went well and the five girls – Mel, Geri, Vic, Emma and Mel C – spent more time taking photos than talking about a reunion.
But she continued: ‘True to form, four months after that meeting at Geri’s, we all fell out again. We are not easy. We are five women with strong personalities and strong wills. Vic said she didn’t want to go on tour and the rest of us were unhappy that Simon hadn’t pushed hard enough to make it happen.’
She added: ‘The Spice story – like mine – is not over yet.’ Another story Mel shared was about the Spice Girls’ penultimate date of their 2008 reunion tour in Toronto, Canada.
She recalls Geri finding her sobbing in a shower after she didn’t show for a meet and greet.
And Mel reveals the reason why that reunion tour was cut short by three months – her.
She wrote: ‘I couldn’t take it anymore. After three months and 47 dates and hundreds of hours on our Spice Jet (we had one and there was a second Spice Jet that took catering, technicians and crew; a tour is like an army and you travel in planes and juggernauts around the world) the tension was getting too much.’